Currently, my house is quiet. From what I can tell, my husband has both kids entertained in the basement after dinner. The toddler isn’t screaming mommy and the baby…. well, isn’t screaming. And the husband isn’t asking for parental back up. A few precious moments of peace and quiet. Rare. Kind of nice to collect my thoughts and re-group from a busy day of play date in the morning and working out during nap time.
Side note on working out. I’m easing my way back into my normal routine and I’m happy to say I went for a run the other day! Yes! Did that feel good! It wasn’t far and it wasn’t fast but damnit it was a run. With that being said, my legs were super sore the next day (and the next) but that’s ok!
I came across this post on another mom blog I follow while I was nursing Joelle this afternoon. And it really made me think. To summarize the post: It’s the simple story of a woman looking back at a video her husband took of her kids who were 2 and 4 years old at the time. Her kids were directing symphonies of thunder while wrangling dinosaurs and daddy filmed a small piece of it. That was 6 years ago and her kids are older. She was desperately trying to get back to that time in her family’s life.
How could I have missed such an uncomplicated moment with my small girls, when all I want now is to dive back there and squish their pudgy bodies against mine while the dinosaurs threaten escape? I know where I was.
Where do you think she was? Where are all moms after dinner is done before bedtime?
I was upstairs, washing dishes and preparing lunches and straightening up a house that never seemed to stay tidy, not even for five minutes. I was grocery shopping, walking the aisles slowly, forgetting what I was supposed to buy even as I fingered the list in my pocket. Tired, but finally alone. I was anywhere but there. I was anywhere but in the claustrophobic playroom filled with noise and needs and laundry piled in the corner.
The part that got to me is that could have been me writing this piece. I’ve been known to hand over the child care reins to Dave as soon as he walks in the door. Most of the time you’ll find me going to the gym to catch a class or head to Target, alone. Or I’ll say: “You take the kids down stairs and I’ll clean up the kitchen.” I’ll hear Corrine laughing and think I’m happy Dave is making her laugh so much. Eventually, I’ll get down there to see what’s so funny. But sometimes, I’ll miss the moment.
My kids are young! Corrine will be two next month and of course, Joelle is a newbie. It’s time for a perspective change on my part. The simple everyday moments are important enough to be around for. Even if I’ve proclaimed I’ve had my fill of the kids for that day. So I’m not going to sweat the small stuff. I’ll be ok with my house not being perfectly clean house (a losing battle with two little kids).
See what I mean?
At the moment, I hear Corrine yelling for mom from the basement. So now is a great time to get off this computer so I don’t miss a moment I’ll want to have later when my kids are older.
Are there moments have you missed?